Thursday, October 7, 2010
Tonight as I pray for my hubby while he is away at the men's retreat, I am also praying for myself.
I am not just praying God will change him, or just mold him, or bless him and use him. I am asking God to do the same for me.
I just can't ask for my husband to change, I also have to change. No more worring, but more trusting. Trusting in him and in God! Trusting in the God's word! Trusting in the hope and future He has prepared for us! Jer.29:11
I just can't ask for my husband to be molded! I want to be molded also! I want to be the woman God wants me to be. I want to be praying without ceasing, trusting in the Lord, rejoicing always! 1 Thess5:17, Prov 3:5, Phil 4:4
Use me also Lord!
Bless me Lord! Num 6:24
I know deep in my heart that in order for my hubby to get the most out of this, I have to prepare my heart and mind also.
I really don't even have the answers to where to start changing except to start in my heart!
Start putting God's word in my heart and meditating on them!
I admit it is hard and scary to pray to change! Very scary! It wont be easy!
It wont happen over night, it wont happen in a week, it is a life long process!
But I know it is worth it all!
Change me Lord!
Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Psalm 51:10