I heard a statement last year...If you want to be a woman of faith, you must live on faith! WOW!
This has resonated with me for months because I know I am not a woman of faith...I do not live on faith!
Yes, I believe in Jesus, my Lord and Savior, I have asked Him into my heart!
I am not talking about that faith...I am talking about the faith to do something you don't understand, to give up control, to follow and trust when you fear the unknown, to not formulate a plan B because you are scared plan A will fail, to be still and Know that He is God (Psalms 46:20).
I know many Godly women of faith. But it never occurred to me until recently they were not this way instantly. It takes time, it takes steps of faith. Sometimes those steps are small baby steps, sometimes the steps are leaps, big jumps into the unknown. This is what it feels like for me. I know some people may just believe I am taking a baby step but it feels like a huge leap of faith for me. I am not used to letting go of control. To trusting, I like to plan and normally have plans B, C, and D forming in my mind while plan A is just getting off the ground.
I know the verse in my mind Jeremiah 29:11...For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord..Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans for hope and future! Could you tell me those plans so I will know!
BUT He doesn't tell me His plans: HE Tells me something else: Something better!
When I told Him, I don't understand this step of faith, I don't know if it will work out, I need you to show me something, to give me a sign that this is the step of faith YOU have for us, for me. He showed me this.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths! Proverbs 3:5-6
My leap of Faith starts tomorrow! I am trusting God and my hubby David who encouraged me to do this, I am nervous and excited how this will affect our family. But I am choosing to believe that He is able to do exceedingly abundantly above what I ask or think (Ephesians 3:20)
So I step out on faith as I no longer will be working full time!
I still will be working part time but I covet prayers as this will affect our family. It will be a blessing to have more time with the girls and David when he comes home but it could be a financial burden as well. We are trusting God!