Friday, February 19, 2010


It has been a rough week in our household.
I was so ready for the new normal to begin, to get on a much needed schedule and get on with living through this deployment.

But oh no, something had to hit me. The dreaded stomach bug! It wiped me out, physically, and emotionally. I was not prepared for this. I guess no one is really.

By Thursday, I was over the worst of it, but exhausted. We returned to our schedule of work and school. But unfortunately that did not last very long. The stomach bug hit us again but this time hitting Corryn. She was so pitiful. It was awful!

I was over it, over deployment, over not hearing from him, over throwing up, over sick kids, over everything.
All I could do was cry and cry a lot. The tears flowed so easily. I really could not stop them. Everything set me off. I felt alone, tired, and weak. This was too much for me at this moment.
I wanted to be through with it all, this week, this month, this season, this deployment. I was through with it! I didn't want the fire, the storm. I wanted to be over this, to be on the other side.


A excellant friend sent me a link to a song called "through".
A song about how God will be with me through it all.
A verse in the song goes, 'without the fire there will be no refining." Refining is the process of purification!


As much as I wish He would do it, He will not remove this deployment, this season, this month, this week or even this day from me, but He will see me through it and I am so Thankful!

He will see me through these times to refine me, to change me, to change my girls, to change my husband.
He will see me through these times to mold me into the person He wants me to be.
He will see me through these times to show Himself to the world.
He will see me through these times to glorify Himself.

Thank You Lord, for seeing me through!

I never want to go through the fire, but without the fire there is no refining!
No purification! No change!

But thankfully, God carries me through it!

Lord, forgive me for forgetting that you are leading me through this. That you are on the other side of this.
Forgive me for not seeing through the moment to the end result - my change, my pure heart for you and you being glorified.
Thank you for carrying me through this fire and all the other ones coming. Thank you for getting me through it!

Ps 106:9 b He lead them through the depths as through a desert.


Julie@comehaveapeace said...

Isaiah 43:2 When you walk through the flames, He will be with you and will not allow you to be burned.

Yes, He will be with you THROUGH it all. Praying this week will be full of obvious provisions of God's care for you.

michelle said...

Just came to you through Kelly's Korner. My brother is a Marine currently at seas en route to Afghanistan. It's one thing with him being my little brother, but I can't fathom my husband being gone. Your family has our prayers!


Cindy Lou said...

I just became a new follower of yours!! You sent me a reply to the snail mail over at Kellys Korner! Thank you!!

I really enjoyed your blog and as you know my son is deployed to Afghanistan and will be there for at least 5 or more months!! It is the hardest thing I have ever done. I know that this is what he wanted to do and he prayed many times for God to show him this is what he wanted. And in the end he said that God has a work for him to do in the USMC! He is working as a layleader with the chaplain and plays the guitar for the church! I know that this is truly what God had in store for him and I have to trust that Justin will come back home safe to me!! I will pray for you and your family and I ask that you pray for me and mine!!
May God Bless you!! Blessings from Georgia!!